I found these quotes online that just happen to describe exactly how i feel.. which scares me to think that my feelings might actually be real...
“God made woman beautiful and foolish; beautiful, that man might love her; and foolish, that she might love him”
“I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do...I'm sorry I can't help myself, I'm in love with you.”
“When I saw you, I was afraid to meet you... When I met you, I was afraid to kiss you... When I kissed you, I was afraid to love you... Now that I love you, I'm afraid to lose you.”
“A woman has got to love a bad man once or twice in her life, to be thankful for a good one”
“Men always want to be a woman's first love - women like to be a mans last romance.”
-Oscar Wilde
“I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”
-Maya Angelou
“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”
* Damn thats the truth..
“Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over.”
“We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly”
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my biggest fear is that what i'm feeling is actually love.. and he never feels the same way. i cant ask, for fear of the truth being what i believe to be true, but there is still a small hope that his actions and words overpower the few missteps that give me this immense doubt.
these feelings are overpowering and interfere in my daily life.. something i never wanted.. but i suppose i have no control over..
i'm just a foolish girl.. i knew what i was getting myself into.. but i did it anyway.. what does that say about me?
